Don't Play With Fire, Unless You Can Handle Getting Burned

Hey All, sorry it's been a little while since I posted, I've kinda of had a lot of things to do.  As a matter of fact I'm sitting in the JC right now getting ready to go to..........PHYSICS!!!!!  YAY!  Anyways, I'm in a pretty good mood cuz I got to see Lindsay last night, that was most excellent.  Other than that the waether is really getting cold fast around here, what happened to that whole 50-60 degree transitional period??  It's just cold all the time, not that I mind, I kinda like cold weather cuz, that means.... SNOW!!!!!!!  YAY FOR SNOW!!!!!!  Anyways, I've gotta jet off to class otherwise I'll be late I just thought I'd let everyone, including my favoritest person( yes I made up another word)  know I was thinking about you..  Alrighty, y'all I'll talk to everyone later.

Lindsay, muah,

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 30, 2003 10:39 | link | comments

Well, I must say, I really needed a good night's sleep, I had a lot of stuff on my mind.  Sleep was very beneficial.  How lazy have I been today, well let's see it's 3:00pm and Im still wearing only a house robe.  Yup!!!  I think today is going to be a day of recuperation.  I was hoping to have seen lindsay today, but she was apparently dragged to Maryland by her parents  grrr......  Well, I just need to see her, It would make me feel a lot better, just to be able to look into her eyes, would make everything else bearable, and it would amke me very happy, so maybe, hopefully, I might get to see here for a few minutes when she gets back.  I dunno, my dad came downstairs, today, and he was like, "I thought you said you were hanging out with Lindsay tonite"  I said, "I was, but now now" to which he replies "That Sux," and I say "Yeah, it does"  Oh well, I'm just hoping I'll get to see her b4 the end of today, so that I have something to look forward to othern than school.  ewwww......  I just wish she could be here so I could hold her in my arms, that would amke my day....  Oh well, I'll post later

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 28, 2003 13:58 | link | comments

okay, I just got back from chilin' with Jason.  I feel better now.  We both needed someone to talk to.  So Now we're both in better moods.  Yay!!

I'll see you tmrw Lindsay, hopefully

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 28, 2003 00:12 | link | comments

yup, still bored......... AHHHH!!!!!! Well, I learned a valuable lesson today. What that lesson is I'm not going to say, but suffice it to say I learned one. Well, I'm still trying to get a hold of some friends, whom probably still think I'm busy, cuz that's what I told them last time I talked to them on Thursday, but now I'm not, and since they're not answering there phones, well............ Yeah. I'm scouring the internet in search of something to keep me interested. But alas, I've been spoiled by broadband, I have nothing interesting left to look at. I don't know how much longer this tirade will gon on, but at least at the moment it's giving me something to do rather than just sit on ym bed and think about how bored I am. It's just one of those days I guess. I got cback from my second head clearing drive, which was good, I liked the driving part, but not the rest of the day. Lindsay called me, that was cool, I like talking to her . This post has gotten long enough anyways, I'm gonna go back to watching my phone and waiting for people to call

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 27, 2003 20:17 | link | comments

Man...... today was quite possibly one of the most boring days' that I have had in a long time.  I hadn't made any plans with anyone, cuz I had had plans for today, but they got cancelled.  So I tried to call people but noone would answer my calls.  The only redeeming part of the day so far was the extraordinary drive that I went on around the area around 6.  mmmmmm....... Tight turns at high speeds, bvery very relaxing and good for clearing my head.  But now I'm just sitting around again being bored, cuz yet again noone is still answering my calls.   grrrr.......  Oh well, I suppose I'll just have to sit at home and be bored then.  Cuz I don't really want to go anywhere by myself, I hate doing that.  Well, if you happen to see my on-line, drop me a line, or email or phone call or something.....  this monotonous day is growing tiresome.

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 27, 2003 19:10 | link | comments

Well, Let's see, I was really really lazy today, and woke up around 1230.... ya for sleeping in, ofcourse I didn't go to bed until 445.  So I guess it all kinda evens out.  Oh well, Lindsay is the best.  Yeah she is, I can't even begin to try to put into words, what she makes me feel, or how I feel about her.  I guess the "care package" will have to suffice for now, eh lindsay .  Oh well, I'm really bored right now so if you want to save me go anyone, go ahead and call me, please, pwety pwease.  Later

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 27, 2003 14:19 | link | comments

Well, I'm just sitting here waiting for Sung and Jason to get here, Alex is here but he's worthless........  mmmmmmm....... Ritz Chips....... mmmm..........   Alex was threatening to smack me with an industrial size rubber band.. ow......  Ummm yeah, I just got back from dropping lindsay off..... that was fun...... 'nuff said, this isn't that kind of web page.  Besides Alex, is draggin me away, I've gotta get outtta here.  If you want to talk call me.  Especially you Lindsay.  I hope you liked the "care package" beautiful

Lindsay.............................................

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 26, 2003 22:25 | link | comments

Well, let's see, there's only 21 hours until I get to be with Lindsay.... that always makes me happy.  Today was kind of a downer day.  Actually I was sitting in physics class and stephanie bumped me and said "dude, where were you?"(I was totally out of it) I said I just had a lot of things on my mind, and we pretty much spent a lot of physics writing notes to everyoine in our little study group, all 5 of us....  Anyways,. she told me that she would tell me exactly what I told her last week, and that was to smile, and then I laughed and started smiling cuz I just thought it was funny.  After that the day wasn't quite as bad, and I got to see Lindsay which made it even betterer(yes I know this is not a word) than I ever thought it was going to be when I woke up.  Well, I'm working on stuff for someone, and doing hw at the same time so, I may or may not post again this evening

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 25, 2003 18:54 | link | comments

Poem

The end of the world is in front of me. I believe it. There has been so much I have accomplished, but so much I want to achieve. Each day is a chance in a lifetime. You think you have a lifetime for each day but sometimes you don’t. Think of all you have done. Your past behind you contains those cherished memories and your mistakes. You will always have hills to climb, and just when you think you got to the top, another hill is after it. You future holds potential. When you get to old to continue, don’t think of yourself as old. Think of yourself as wise and experienced. You’ve changed the future and have grown through your own eyes. All that has changed is you appearance. The end of the world is in front of me, so I’ll jump and fall into new horizons.

Moral: If you worry about stuff to much you'll never be able to live your life, I'm just taking things as they come, and dealing with it.  Sure there are bad days, but there are also amazingly good ones too.  In the end isn't that what life's all about anyways, making the most of something while we're here becuase we all share the same end result.  Love as if you've never been hurt, live as if today is your last day, and make the most of everything, cuz who knows how much time we have left.  Sorry if I come off sounding condescending, it's not my intention, I just want everyone to be happy, maybe that's too much to ask, but that's what I want.  If anyone needs some cheering up e-mail me jcook2@gmu.edu.  G'night All and pleasant dreams, especially you Lindsay, I hope you are enjoying yours  cuz, you'll be in mine. 

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 25, 2003 00:21 | link | comments (1)

Right now, everything seems really really weird......  Don't ask me why, I was talking with Sung and we were just kind of talking stuff out.  He's good for that, we were talking about old times, high school and such......  It was actually pretty cool, although there are a lot of things that happened in high school which I wouldl rather not remember I really kind of miss parts of it.  Especially the part about that when you were in high school you got to see a lot of friends on amuch more regular basis and now it's a lot harder and different.   Maybe things are better now, I think they're just different, I dunno, I'm in a weird mental state right now.  Not really feeling much of anything at the moment, just kind of disconnected from teh world.  It's such a strange feeling.. I might post a poem in a few minutes I haven't decided yet

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 25, 2003 00:11 | link | comments

Well, I heard this song on the my cd player off of Vertical Horizon's new Album.  But I just thought I'd post it here, cuz at the moment it is kinda significant to me.
Other than that, I'm jsut chilling around the house with Sung.  Maybe get some Mario Party on...  Call me I could use someone to talk to later

Heaven knows that you're with me now 
Heaven knows that you're here 
I feel your breath all around me now 
And all the pain disappears 

It goes away, it goes away 

Chorus: 
And it only hurts 
When you cry 
I'm only sad 
when there's tears in your eyes 
I can't lie and say I'm fine 
but it only hurts 
When you cry 

You carry too much on your shoulders 
I can't wait 'til you let it go

cause the only thing we're getting is older 
This time never comes back around 

It just goes way, it goes away 

Chorus 

When you cry 

Heaven knows that you're with me now 
And I'll do my best do hold on 
'cause nothing is worth all this fighting now 
'cause I won't cure 'til it's gone 

Make it go away, go away 
Make it go away, go away 

Chorus 

It hurts when you cry 
When you cry

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 24, 2003 20:27 | link | comments

I'm on the outside looking in 
What do I see 
so much of this left to begin 
Where would I be 
I'm on the outside looking in 
Cover me through this night 

I guess I don't know what's left to say 
Hear me out 
All of the dreams of yesterday 
keep breaking me down 
What's on the outside 
can you say? 
Am I getting carried away 

Chorus 
It's in your mind 
It's in your eyes 
So it's goodbye again 
It's way past time 
for one last try 
So it's goodbye again 

Goodbye again... 

I'm getting on 
what's the use? 
You know how I get 
I can't decide which is the truth 
at least not yet 
I got the feeling that it's you 
what can be said alone in this room? 
And now... 

Chorus 

Who wants you now? 
Maybe somebody else 
I'll wait around 
Maybe you'll forget 
you were never here 
Maybe forget 
you were never, never, here... 

I'm on the outside looking down 
What do I see? 
So much of this cold in the ground 
Where would I be? 
I'm on the outside looking down 
Cover me before you go... 

Chorus 

You're falling out 
I'm falling in 
so it's goodbye again 

It's way past time 
for one last try 
so it's goodbye....

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 23, 2003 20:06 | link | comments

Yay Optical Illusions

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 23, 2003 19:52 | link | comments

WOW!!!!!!!! If any of you know me very well, y'all know I love my Linkin Park.  Well, they just released a video for the last song off of their new Album Meteoa, called "Numb" and oh my god it is unbelievably and scarily like my year last year.  It's really freaky, download this video now, it's amazing.  Also in the awesome category, Vertical Horizon released there new Alubm "GO" today, and IO'm listenging to that intermingled with some Linkin Park and such.  Well, I' gotta get back to hw I'll talk to y'all later

Lindsay is ze best.

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 23, 2003 18:46 | link | comments

Well, I'm just sitting around at home, being bored..........   Well, I am going to go meet lindsay in about an hour, so that should be fun .  Other than that, I'm not quite sure what else I'm gonnna do tonite, I should probly get started on my cmoputer science project at some point, and my western civ assignment which is due tmrw.  Hmmmmm......  Well, we'll see what happens.  Other than that, I'll probly be around so anyone who wants to drop me a line, you know what to do

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 23, 2003 13:47 | link | comments (1)

Lindsay.............................................

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 22, 2003 18:58 | link | comments

Well, my teacher didn't grade our exams, so we have to wait until Wednesday before we get our grades...........  Oh well, other than that just being bored and having noone to talk to today has led me to posting at least two or three times today.  Oh well, I felt like it, and besides what else did I have to do, except study for my CS quiz?  Well, I called Lindsay but she wasn't there so I suppose I'll call her again.  Oh well, I'll post later, if you want to talk you can always call me......  please??????  Pretty please........

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 22, 2003 14:15 | link | comments

Annoyed

Grr......   After all of that ordeal with getting power back and al, it decided it wanted to gout out today, AGAIN!!!! GAH!!! But at least I hjave my wireless LAN at school, Go College!  Anyways, Yeah, So I didn't end up going to bed until about 3, and I was having really weird dreams.  I'm just kinda bored now waiting to go andget my big Vector Calculus exam back.   Oh well, I guess that I'm just gonna have to bite the bullet on my CS exam today and go cram.  I'lll talk to y'all later.

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 22, 2003 10:44 | link | comments

I guess I don't like to post at normal times....  Why am I still up.  Because I'm pre-occupied with trying to find something on-line and I can't find it.  OH well, maybe I'll just end up going to bed.  Back to school tmrw, after my little 4day mini-sabbatical.  Grr.......  I don't wanna be at school I know exactly where I want to be and who I want to be with, but I can't be with her right now.  Oh well, I'll just have to wait until the next time I see her.  Well, I'm gonna go off to bed before I spend the rest of the night thinking about Lindsay and staying up all night.  Oh well I'll be dreaming about her anyways.  Goodnight All.  Pleasant Dreams, I know who'll be in mine, and that is never a bad thing.

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 22, 2003 00:31 | link | comments

well, it's early early early....  I just got back from taking Lindsay home.  I think she enjoyed tonight, I know I did.  Although I don't know when the nesxt time I'll get to see her is, it doesn't matter, we've gotten really close, and it's amazing how awesome she makes me feel.  At the same time, part of me just wonders sometimes exactly what I did to deserve her.  It must have been really good whatever it was.  Well, I'm gonna go to bed, I'm tired and I have to go pick my dad up at the airport in the morning.  Everyone have pleasant dreams, cuz I know exactly who will be in mine . 

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 21, 2003 01:17 | link | comments

Hola, well I'm back from teh horrible horrible Sam's Club store, boy it was packed.  But it's okay, we got lots of things to eat,...............yummmmmmm.....  Other than that, I've been busy cleaning all day, and I have to go mow a lawn, and clean up all the debris from my grandpa's yard.  Oh well, I'll survive cuz' I get to go over to lindsay in a few hours, but hey I got to take my first shower in sever days, man did that feel good.  Stupid power outage.  Part of it was pretty cool, but it gets kinda old after a few days.  Oh well, I gotta jet, lawns to mow, peoples to chill with, etc etc.

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 20, 2003 14:06 | link | comments

Well, let's seee, I haven't been able to do anything recently becaus of the stupid power outage.  Man that was profoundly annoying.  My friends and I ended up playing board games last inght for four an a half hours by candlelight.  Which was acvtually kinda fun, especially when we all started arguin over the rules, and Ludin almost burnt my house down.    Well, I'm actually really looking forward to later tonite.  I'm going out with Lindsay.  Other than that, hmmm.......  I dunno, maybe we'll watch a movie or something.  It doesn't really matter.  So long as we're together I'll be happy.  I'm pretty sure she feels the same way(at least I hope she does )  Yeah, I've gotta get to the store, gaving no power for 2.5 days kinda destroys all the perishable food items.  Later All

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 20, 2003 09:33 | link | comments

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 18, 2003 20:08 | link | comments

in case your wondering what "hitokiriyuki" means, well well well, I suppose you'll have to ask me to find out.  Nah just kidding.  It means "the snow assassin".  Well, with this whole hurricane thing everything had been kind of a downer day.  I had been trying to get a hold of Lindsay, (Lindsay=Words Cannot Describe, but for now I'll go with Beautiful, Caring, Awesome,, just for a few)  so yeah, I'd been trying to get a hold of Lindsay, and I couldn't I called her cell like 5 times, cuz I really wanted to talk to her.  But then I got aan e-mail about 30 mins ago, and now I'm VERY HAPPY!!!!!!  oh well, I suppose it was just cuz' my friends had been getting on my nerves, noone was returning my calls, and I was absolutely bored out of my mind.  But I dunno "Sometimes someone says something really small, and it just fits right into this empty place in your heart." Maybe y'all know what I mean by that.  If not well, just take it for waht you get out of it.  I'm gonna try to go calm down now, and I'm thinking about going and playing in the hurricane *Does Dance in Huricane*  Lata

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at September 18, 2003 20:03 | link | comments