Don't Play With Fire, Unless You Can Handle Getting Burned

Oh good god, once tomorrow is over I will be an (almost) free man.  After tomorrow's physics exam it is just Finals and a paper to wirte on 4 books I haven't read.  But I can handle that.  No pressure right?  Anywho, I'm stil trying to fiugre out exactly hgow this summer is going to work out.  I still can't believe my birthday is tomorrow, I haven't even though about planning something for this weekend.  I just haven't ahd a single moment when I ahven't been doing at least three things at the same time.  It's just been absolutely ridiculous.  I figure I should probably get back to studyingn for that physics exam.  Ahhhhhhh Multiple Integration by Trigonometric Substitution.  Lord some of this stuff is riculous.  AHHHHHH!!!!!!!

I promise I will post something more substantial and artisitic this weekend, I need to put a poem up here or something, I will, I promise.  Anywho, Later Y'all

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 28, 2004 13:52 | link | comments

Sometimes I'm reminded of the ultimate frailty that is life. I don't really wanna go into it right now, let's just say I got a phone call from a certain Dr. Oh well, what can you really do. I'll be around if anyone wants to talk. Later

Life is so Fragile, and We are all so Frail.........

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 26, 2004 14:19 | link | comments

WEll, it's back to work tomorrow.  I still have a lab to do at some point.  Other than that I have to study for the evil evil physics exam that is on Thursday.  However after that the only thing left is finals.... Which by nature I'm not really looking forward to.  Anywawys, I've been so busy lately I really haven't had that muchtime to write a decent post about things.  Hopefully some free time will be coming in my near future which should give me enough time to write at length about what's been going on.  later

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 25, 2004 23:09 | link | comments

I'm DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  It only took 49 hours of programming to get it all done.  And I've gotten somehwere around an hour of sleep and 48 hours of programming straight.  So yeah..... I'm a little wired right now.  I'm gonna go get some sleep.  Laters.

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 24, 2004 22:24 | link | comments

Well, I've been staring at either a computer, physics book or Algebra book, for ........... 26 hours straight now.  I'm not kidding.  This is truly the weekend from hell.  Anyways, back to work.  I figuer somehwere around Sunday Mid-day I'll be finished.  Hopefully.......  Until then wish me luck, cuz I'm gonna need it to stay sane

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 24, 2004 14:57 | link | comments

Keyaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!

So, anywho.  I'm bored.  I've been working on getting some music done.  I might hopefully have an album ready in the next month or so.  It's kind of a mix of Ambient/Chill music, along with some techno.  I'm not sure exactly how or wqhen it will all eventually come together, so thast's all I can really sya for now.  However, If you want I maybe put up a few clips of songs and such.  I've been absolutely swamped lately, and am trying to work on peotry and music so as to at least retain some of my sanity.  We'll see how it all works out.  Thursday is MASON DAY!!!!!! Yay for Frieworks....  Anywho, I;'m out I will post more about everything laters

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 21, 2004 01:37 | link | comments

Almost Over....

Well, it's about time to officially start gearing up for finals....  I relaly don't like this part of the school year.  I especially don't like having a particle physics exam on my birthday, but oh well, what am I gonna do.  Anyways, I'm going to bed, I have a crap load of projects to get done this week, so I need my rest cuz I'm pretty mentally incoherent at the moment,  LAter

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 20, 2004 04:53 | link | comments (1)

So, who wants to go shopping with me???  They didn't leave their name. *pouts.  Anyways, I'm off to school, today is lovely, gonna be 87 degrees today.  w00t!!!  Anywho, This week will definelt ybe one of the most hectic I have had oin a while, since I've promised a lot of people/things time.  But I'll try to remain sane.  And whoever it was that said they would go shopping with me, tell me who you are.  CVuz I wanna go

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 19, 2004 14:22 | link | comments (1)

Oh and for anyone who's wondering, I definetly plan on buying the Last Samurai, but I couldn't wait the 7 months it takes before they realease the stupid thing.  I have nop patience for such things, hence I dl'ed it.  I will definetly buy it becuz' it is good.  Anyways, Last night was pretty chill.  Sung and I ended up playing video games, after the three (Jason, Sung, Me) watched a few episodes of SG-1.  That was cool, But Sung and I had some hard fought struggles in our bideo gaming experience last night.  That's right I said experience, cuz, all of a sudden we finally lost, and somehow 2 hours had passed by.  It was intense.  I really wanna go shopping, but noone will go with me.  I dunno why.  I mean obviously my guy friends don't wanna go shopoping, but everytime I've tried to get in touch with girl's it either doesn't work out, or they've already maxed out their credit cars.  Anywho, I'm out to the grociery store to pick up some more Mountain Dew: Livewire YAY!!!!!

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 18, 2004 10:28 | link | comments (1)

I finally finished dowloading the Last Samurai.  Wow!!! I really love that movie....  And I'm listening to the soundtrack right now.  Anywho, I'm going out to dinner tonite, then hanging out with friends , and maybe even going on a date?!?!?!  oooooooo...  HAHA I figured some of you might get a kick out of that.  Well, I hope everyone had a happy tax day.  I'm gonna go finish gettin' ready.  Have fun everyone

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 17, 2004 14:26 | link | comments (2)

sleep is good.  I'm going to be doing some of that tonite, I hope....  And hopefully listenting to the soundtrack from the Last Samuria, which btw was a great movie

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 14, 2004 23:42 | link | comments (1)

Anyways, So I've just been kinda sitting around trying to remain busy all day. Thre's this one person in my life at the moment that I realy just want to lean back and take a swing at. That's not the kind of person I am, but, he is really really ushing his luck. It's very rare that I have people that I truly just don't want to be oround, and he is definetly one. Let's see what else, well, I've kinda been busy with sschool, that stupid stuff keeps me so busy I can hardly see straight. Tonte is Stephy's b-day. So Happy Birthday to her. Mine's in a little over two weeks. Gulp, I won't be a teenager anymore, that's kinda scary..... Well, I will hopefully be able to maintain my composure tonight and not lash out and beat the ever-loving crap out of a certain someone, who knows who they are

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 13, 2004 15:56 | link | comments

Well, today has been a relaxtion period of sorts for me, lord know I needed one.  Anyways, I'm having Crèpes.  Yay for making French Food.  I love cooking.  Other than that I've jsut kinda been sitting around. Jason and I are going to watch more Of Stargate SG-1 tonite.  Taht series is pretty tight, but other than that I will probly just end up hanging out with the family for most of the night, I haven't seen them in a week.  Well, I'll write some more, and I'm working on a new poem, so when that gets finished it'll get put up here

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 11, 2004 12:58 | link | comments

Something I've always been wanting to say.  hehehe

I quote from my own personal memoirs:  "Love is a fire, but whether it is going to warm your heart or burn down your house, you can never tell.  Because the Hardest Thing In Life Is To Watch The One You love, Love someone else..."  ~ Me 

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 10, 2004 20:03 | link | comments (1)

Okay, I'm really scared now.  I just looked at my schedule for next semester, and it is really really really really really scary.  yeah.  It is definetly not cool.  18 credit hours of Math, Physics, and ECE classes.  Wow it is definetly going to suck the big one.  If someone wants to know why I'm so crazy, I really don't know.  I jsut suppose that it needs to be done...

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 09, 2004 19:47 | link | comments

wow.  I am so tired, I think I'm about to drop.  Jason was supposed to come over, but he has proven impossible to get in contact with.  Other than that I was thinking about starting on my Computer Science project tmrw, but most likely I will just end up waiting a few more days.  I'm not really all here mentally at the moment.  It's just been a really rough week for me, and although I'm finally working my way out of this nasty spell of depression, thanks to a few good friends (and a lot of medicine) I've just had a really rough time adjusting to recent events.  I especially don't appreciate certain comments made by one certain individual. However, I will just leave it at that.  Hopefully in the future he will learn to not make idiotic, unfounded comments.  Anyways, I'm still kinda looking for someone to talk to, so anyone who is feeling particularly bored drop me a line.  I'm working on a few new songs and poems, but I'm not quite sure when I will be completely done with them.  These songs are pretty heartfelt considering they are the first musical pieces I've been anle to complete since well........... yeah, I think we all know the last person I wrote music for.....................

Anyways, I'll get back to being creative, and hopefully produce something worthwile, other than useless Carbon Dioxide.  Laters

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 08, 2004 20:35 | link | comments

Well, another sleep deprived night.   But oh well, I have bunches of physics to do tomorrow.  So we'll see how that goes.  Other than that.  I'm not sure what else I will be doing.  Hopefully I'll drop by and get to see Steph and Ryan.  But who knows.  Anywho, anyone that wants to get a hold of me just call my cell and leav a message.  Laters

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 08, 2004 00:01 | link | comments

So tired...... I'll post more tmrw night

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 06, 2004 23:28 | link | comments

You know what really pisses me off????   People who say one thing and act a cmpletely different way.  That goes for a few poeple roaming around in the world of me at the moment.  You get three options.  1) Be Honesty.  2) I get to talk some sense into you.  3)  I just stop talking to you.  Pick one, if you are a member of that group, which is a subset of people I've seen in the past week.  I'm tried of this.  Ya' know, I wsqa having a relatively good week, until my friends decided they wanted to be stupid.  Oh well, hopefully I'l enjoy the party tmrw night.  But Sunday night was the best night I've had in a long while.  Laters

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 06, 2004 01:16 | link | comments (2)

Wel, it's definetly bedtime for me.  I've actually come to the conclusion that I'm ready to seriously put myself out there again.  However, I wonder, can someone really handle all of my emotional ups and downs?  I suppose we'll see.  I don't realy have a particular person in mind.  I just figure that it's about time to try and move past everything and get on with stuff.  Soo........  yeah, we'll see how that goes.  Hopefully something good will be coming my way.  Later all

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 04, 2004 23:03 | link | comments (1)

Well, I now have the next 10 hours to myself.  Noone is home, and won't be funtil Thursday.  I just finished up my computer science project.  ONLY ONE MORE TO GO!!!!!!  It's due APril 25th and it's quite icky.  Anywho, I'm really really really hungry.  So I'm gonna go git me some food now.  I'll be back to post more later

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 04, 2004 12:22 | link | comments

I wish that I could just float away,
Leave everything behind.
Have you ever felt like you needed a break?
Or maybe just a day to get away…
Pretend the here and now isn’t real
That your dreams are reality
And reality your dreams.
Maybe then life would just be so much easier…
Dreaming of the real reality,
While living your dreams.
Perhaps maybe then that the reality
Would be bearable…
Maybe we wouldn’t fall with the pressure,
Or even stumble,
Just walk in a straight
Self-assured path.

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 02, 2004 22:06 | link | comments

Well, my last project is almost done, Then I get to start ethe cycle all over again.  One month to go until summer..........  I really wish that was now.  Anywho, I've gotta go meet some people today.  The lack of sleep is reallly starting to make me slightly crazy. I've gotten 4.5 hours in 3 days.  I think that almsot qualifies me as legally mentally impaired due to lack of sleep.  Anyways, I'm out for now.  Later

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at April 02, 2004 08:50 | link | comments