Unexpected Times

You came at the most unexpected of times…

A time I thought I would never smile again…

You came…

And I smiled...

A time I thought I would never feel again…

You came…

And I felt…

A time when I was numb, cold, and cruel…

You came with your attention and love…

You warmed my heart…

You showed me I'm not alone…

You showed how to care once more…

I only hope to be there for you…

At the most unexpected of times…

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You Can Never Understand

You can never understand…

In life there are things that we hold dear to our hearts. People, places, possessions, memories. But there is always something that that is always within our hearts through times both good and bad. Love, the ones you love are always dear to our hearts. But even as we live and love, you can never understand how much you truly love something, until you have lost it. Be with the ones you love now, they will not always be there. Say what should be said, say what must to be said. Because if you wait, it may be too late.

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 30, 2004 17:07 | link | comments
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Well, today was another crappy day. At least it was until arond 8pm. Then it was Yay. Cuz I got to talk to my vaoritest person in the world. Anyways, I'm really really tired so I'm not going to post too much more. I jsut wanted to say that I'm really sleepy, and that I really need to get started on ym paper. Later everyone. Have a good day.

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 29, 2004 23:00 | link | comments

Soooooo... This week has been rather crappy.  My car broken, and they said it would cost $4,400 to repair.  So it's time to say goodbye to good old pinky.  Rest in peace Car, you've been with me for quite a while now.  Sigh.......  Other than that, school has been keeping me busy as usual, I have a giantic paper to write by Sunday, so I hope that I can get that done.  I really miss C too, it sucks.  Being away from the people you love is no fun at all.  In fact it's really hard.  Well, seeing as how I have to be up early tomorrow to go and deal with more getting rid of my car hassles, I shall be off.  Later everyone, have a good night

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 28, 2004 22:58 | link | comments
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Well, today was moderatley okay, but yesterday totally sucked ass......  My car definetly broke down, and it's probably not going to be able to get fixed.  The engine is totally busted, and it's probablygoing to cost more to fix the car than the car is worth so screw that.  I guess it's about time for a new car.  I definelty didn't do as well on an exam aas I thought, I was kind of hoping that I'd get an A but I only got a B, which is lame.  A's are so much cooler.  Anywho, I've got a bunch of homework left to do.  So I'm off, have a good night everyone

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 27, 2004 23:02 | link | comments (1)

Well today was pretty lame.  I had to wake up early to go to an interview.  The guy I invterviewed with (who was the president of the company) really wanted to bring me on like right now.  I turned him down though, he wanted me to work about 15-20 hours a week.  To do that I would have had to work on Friday and Saturday, and I'm not willing to give up that time, I can't give up that time, Since it belongs to somebody else...  Anywho, I still may end up working there for a little bit over the summer or something like that.  After that, I went to school where there was much homework being done.  There was this whole big fiasco as I fell down the stairs and slammed my head into the steel stair rail.  It hurt like crazy, it still does, oh well....  Anyways, class, then I came home and got interrogated by my backround investigator, boy that was no fun.  Following that I talked to C on the phone, and now I'm just chillaxin' here at the computer, wishing I was about 110 miles west-south-west of here...  I hope everyone has a good night.

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 25, 2004 22:04 | link | comments
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We Can Never See Past The Choices We Don't Understand

Well, this weekend was very interesting...  IT started off great, well not so great at first, but it was okay once you got past the obnoxious complaining of someone.  Anywho, I don't know exactly what I want to put in this blog about this weekend at the moment.  They're were definetly things that I want to talk about, but I think they are probably better served for another medium.  I may put a poem/piece of prose tonight.  But I digress...  Anyways, this weekend definetly ahd it's ups and downs, and I've had to do a lot of mental housecleaning to keep myself sane, (I like that imagery), but I think I'll be okay.  It's really hard to know that someone hurts because they hurt you.  Part of you wants to hold them and tell them everything will be alright, while the other part of you feels all of those usual feeling that one feels when they're feelings are hurt (indifference, anger, sadness, I forget the X number of phases that one goes through) .  That's all I'm going to say about that though.  I'll deal with the rest of it in my head.  Overall, my weekend went pretty well.  I really wish that I was somewhere else at the moment, definetly not here.  It's hard to sleep at night when everytime you close you're eyes the image of someone is burned into your eyelids, and you reach out and hug a pillow pretending, and almost tricking yourself for a brief, fleeting moment that they are there next to you.  Sigh........  Such is life........  Anywho, I'm going to head off to bed now, I'm feeling extraordinarily tired.  I hope that everyone has a good day.

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 24, 2004 22:25 | link | comments (2)
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Well, it's early, and I'm up.  Ewwwww.........  I stil have to go to the store, and run a few more errands before I head out.  I'll probly end up leaving sometimes around 1145ish or so.  Anywho, this weeke has been reasonably okay.  I still can't get over having a 1,200% in my Discrete Mathamtics class.  I find that absolutely hilarious.  Anyways, I've got a bunch of crap to do, later everyone

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 22, 2004 06:48 | link | comments (1)
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Someone hurt my feelings today.  I doubt they know that they did, but they said something that really got to me, because the statement implied that I wasn't doing anything for them, when in reality I felt like I was being completely overlooked.  I didn't really make a big deal about it, and I'm sure I'll get over it, it jsut kind of bothered me.  I doubt they even meant it like that, it was one of those things that was more about the way it was said, than the content of the actual words.  I'm not going to talk about it anymore, but a final word to everyone, be careful what you say, you might hurt someone and not even know it.  As for the rest of the day, my exam went pretty well.  There was massive amounts of studying, but such is life.  I hope I did well.  Anywho, I'm going to bed.  Later all

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 20, 2004 22:16 | link | comments (1)

Well, I have an exam today.  That's gonna be icky.  It's funny, I have so many little things that are bothering me, probably more than I've ever had before.  What iwth School and all, and being overloaded in terms of credit hours, and also having extremely difficult ECE classes.  I should be going absolutely crazy.  But I'm not, and I have one person to that for that.  She knows who she is.  It's funny, I've never felt that any one person could have such a soothing effffect, Even when I'm in my worst mood she'll always manage to be able to cheer me up.  I can't wait to see her, and talking with her never grows old.  Maybe it's just because I haven't ever been this "truly" happy before, what I mean by that is, tests, hw, quizzes, all of that stuff ebbs and flows, whereas this feeling I have about her, that goes much deeper.  Anyways, I hope that everyone is having a good weekend.  Get some sleep everyone, god knows I could use some.

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 20, 2004 08:31 | link | comments
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The Redskins won! yay!  Other than that, this has been a pretty good weekend, with the exception of a few isolated bits.  Esepcially that whole doing physics on Saturday morning, yeah that was definetly ick.  Anyways, I haven't really been doing too much this weekend, jsut hanging out with the family and C, tonight should be good, as we are reuniting some of the old crew to hopefuly play some mario party or something, that would be hot.  That's all for now, I hope everyone had a good weekend

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 17, 2004 15:39 | link | comments (1)
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I hate doing hw on saturdays', I'm currently waiting for TOm to get here so that we can do physics hw, we've got about and hour and a half or so of work to do.  I don't really wanna do it but I guess we don't reall have much of a choice.  Anywho, things have been going pretty well recently, I'm in a pretty good mood, I'm just trying not to let school get to me to much, it does sometimes.  Other than that, I've just had a lot to think about recently, regarding my shcedule for next semester and such.  I hope everyone is doing well

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 16, 2004 08:48 | link | comments

I am very very very busy.  But tomorrow is going to absolutely rock.  OH hells yeah.  Well after physics Lab which is always lame.  Sigh.....  Anywho, I've got this gigantic week of exams next week and a bunch of papers to write.  What else i new, eh?  Anywho, I've gotta get back to doing my english paper.  then doing error propagation for my lab report.  Other than that, everything is doing pretty well, it's jsut being really really busy.

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 13, 2004 20:59 | link | comments (1)

I'm feeling lonely...

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 12, 2004 19:16 | link | comments (1)

My Bit Of Introspection For The Day:

I've gone through so many different versions of myself, I've conviced myself to not think of things so well that I don't even know what's truth anymore... My memory of my life is a series of discontinous points. I have blocked out so many pieces of my past, I can't even remember what I did when I was younger. I don't know why, I honestly can't remember. It's a very distrubing thought, to have so many things in my past that I can't remember. When I look back at what I can piece together of my life, I struggle to remember things that at the time seemed so important. Just a little bit of introspection for thee day

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 11, 2004 22:25 | link | comments
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Well, let's see... I was out of town this weekend.  It was absolutely awesome, and I wish that it could never have ended.  As for now, I've got a few people coming over to watch some movies...  Later everyone

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 11, 2004 16:53 | link | comments
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Ever get that feeeling like you want to say something to someone, but know that if you do you'll come off sounding like an ass? Yeah...... It sucks, especially since there isn't really anything I can do about it. Anyways, I just have this english assignment to finish and then it is smooth sailing for the nice 4 day sweekend I have. Yummmmm... Anywho, I've just had a lot on my mind recently, and school being so annoying isn't really helping. I'll write more later.. Goodnight Everyone

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 07, 2004 18:55 | link | comments (2)
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Well today has been busy.  The average on my physics exam was a 58, and the standard deviation was 19.  I got an 83, which for those of you that may not necessarily be math inclined means, an A.  Yay for me!!!!  Anywho, I've got a crap load of studying left to do for my Linear Electronics Class.  We'll see how much of that I Can get done tonight.  Later everyone

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 05, 2004 16:15 | link | comments (2)
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Eeeeeep!  Today has been very busy, I have a bunch of hw and studying for exams that needs to get done at some point this week.  AHH!!!!!!!!   I don't think I can ever rememebr feeling so absolutely busy before in my entire life, I have a billion things to do, and a whole other set of things I would much rather be doing.  Oh well, such is life I suppose...  Hope everyone is doing well.  I just haven't had the time I've really wanted to do some of the things I've wanted to do lately.  As for the list of things that should die at the moment: LaPlace Transform, Fourier Anything, and Differential Equations

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 04, 2004 21:05 | link | comments (1)

Chilll time is over.  Bah!  School needs to just go away for a little bit.  I have a fun fun fun exam in Linear Dynamic Signals and Systems on Thursday.  But after that it should be rather unbusy for the next week, except for the standard weekly quizzes and mounds of hw.  This weekend was awesome, I had a lot of fun.  Anywho, I've got a few things I still need to take care of so I will post mroe later

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 03, 2004 17:49 | link | comments

Abooooo?  Well Thursday came and went and believe me it was a ridiculously busy day.  But yes now there will be no more adiabtic process and carnot cycle analysis.  All that stuff can die cuz i never have to deal wiht it ever again.  Anywho, other htan mad amounts of hw an d studying I haven't really been up to much.  I'm just sitting around on C's computer typing this actually, waiting for peoples to get ouf class.  Today is my sister's b-day so anyone who wants to can leave a shout for her.  Other than that, I'm up out, I've got a bunhc of crap to do.  but hopefully the weekend will be filled with lots of chill time. 

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at October 01, 2004 09:28 | link | comments (1)
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