Don't Play With Fire, Unless You Can Handle Getting Burned

Soooo, let's see....... I'm just chillin' here at the house now. It's really quiet here, since everybody has gone out of town. I don't think I really mind that much. I've been feeling a little groggy recently, I think that I'm just tired, although I should probably go to the doctor, as usually whenever I feel like this for an extended period of time it means that something is probably wrong with me. Oh well, I don't really want to go to the doctor's, so hopefully I can just continue to ignore this and it will go away.
What else has been going on..... hmmmm.... Chriostmas was good, I got a bunch of useful things, although I think that the holiday season seems to ahve lost a lot of its magic to me. The past few days I kinda just feel like I have been going through the motions. Nothing I get on chrsitmas is a surprise, I knew everything I Was going to get, and Ithe whole experience was just vbery very draining. I'm not sure exactly what it was about this year, but I just can't seem to get as excited as I used to be able to about it. Maybe it just needs to snow, I bet that would make me happy.
I got to hang out with a few friends tonight, that was great, I really miss my friends..... For some reason it has become harder and harder to find time to hang out with them, I'm not going to complain about not having enough free time, because I know that isn't the reason, I don't really know what it is, and that is something that is bothering me. I really miss the comradery that I have with "the guys." I know that we're all busy adults now and leading our lives, going to school, working, familial obligations, kids (for some of us), and so on, but I just wish that we could all hang out more. Maybe it's some sort of nostalgic feelings coming back, but I miss the times when I could jsut throw caution to the wind and be spontaneous. My life seems to have somehow managed its way into neat little packages, and I don't think that I really like that. Don't get me wrong, I love the way a lot of things are going right now, there are just some that need some work. I don't know if it's one of those things that I just need to spend some time thinking about, or if it's something I am going to have to fix, I just know that I'm going to have to figure something out.
Anyways, I need to go to bed, don't get me wrong though, it's not like I'm sad or anything, it's just that, I have certain things on my mind that really irk me even though the rest of my life is probably doing better than it has in a long time.

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at December 27, 2004 01:19 | link | comments
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Merry Chrsitmas, let's see, it's 3:27am on Christnmas, and I'm still wide awake and bright-eyed.  Woo-Hoo!  Anyways, I hope everyone has a good holdiay, g'night all

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at December 25, 2004 02:28 | link | comments

Chillin'

So I've definetly been enjoying myself over this break, however, it has been very difficult to arrange times to hang out with a lot of my friends.  We never seem to be available when the other is, which is very annoying.  Oh well, I guess I'll jsut keep on trying.  Anywho, I have to be up early (relatively) tomorrow, so I should be going to bed.  G'dnight All.

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at December 21, 2004 00:37 | link | comments

Sometimes, life seems to be going at such a fast clip that you never really seem to get a chance to sit back and reflect on what has happened, or the person that you've become.  I have been feeling very "off" recently.  I can't really put my finger on what it is, I just know that things aren't the way that I Want them to be.  I'm not exactly sure why, all I know is that if you add up the indiviual events taht are going on around me, you would think that I would be one of the happiest individuals around, yet, for some reason I feel out of the loop.  I don't even feel at home aroudn a lot of my friends anymore, I can't figure out why.   Things that once seemed so fulfilling now seem so hollow, and there's really only a few things that seem to really complete me anymore.  I feel strangely unfulfilled in life at the moment, strangely listless in the great ocean that is this world.  I need to figure out where I want to be going.  I know who I want to be there with, but currently that's about all I know, anyways, it's time for me to go to bed.  G'night

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at December 18, 2004 00:27 | link | comments (1)
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God Hates Me

I'll give y'all one guess..................  Physics is the great satan.  But at least I can say I 've done something few others have.  Hehehehe, maybe I'll go take out my frustrations by building an atomic bomb or something. hehehehehehehe, I can do that now..........  Yay!

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at December 16, 2004 16:16 | link | comments (1)

My last final is tomorrow.  Man...... It really is going to suck.  Physics is such a difficult topic to get tested on.  Beause some of the concpets that we are studying now are becoming extremely cumbersome.  Imgainary Quantum Mechanical Wave Functions, Time Dilation, that stuff needs to go away.  I can't wait until tomorrow eveing when I will be done with all of this for at least a few weeks.  Anywho, I've gotta get some sleep, I've got a big exam tomorrow, wish me luck...

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at December 15, 2004 21:02 | link | comments
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Well, I took my ECE exam today, which was much harder than I had expected, although apparently people told me that I did relatively well.  Other than that, I'm just counting down, I've got 2 days left and then I will be done.  This is a good thing.  Anyways, I'm going to go to bed now, because I have to get up and go study with the T-iz-om tomorrow morning....... 

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at December 14, 2004 23:43 | link | comments
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So, I  updated my blog today.  I'm definetly thinking that I like the new template so far.  The color scheme is much better for the way  like to see things (dark).  Anywho, I've gotta go finish studiying for finals.  Later all

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at December 13, 2004 13:16 | link | comments (1)

4 DOWN AND 3 TO GO.  I RULE.  AND I NEVER HAVE TO SEE Bitchy McBitchington Ewell ev er again!!!! YAY

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at December 09, 2004 21:40 | link | comments

Finals..... Bah.....  Anywhom, it is definetly bedtime for me.  I've finished 3 Finals so far, but I've got 1 of the 2 worst ones tomorrow, stupid Physics Laboratory Finals, they suck.  Anyways, I get to leave to go see my favorite person tomorrow, so that should be awesome, once I finish my Physics Final, but for now I must go to bed.  Wish me luck peoples, I'm going to be needing it.

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at December 08, 2004 21:59 | link | comments

1 Down 6 To Go

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at December 08, 2004 14:27 | link | comments

Well, I stayedup late tonight.  It's 415 and I'm sitting here still in my day clothes, writing this blog entry.  I thnk that I'm prbably going to go and read some calvin and hobbes and try to relax.  My brain is pretty fried after playing 7 hours of straight HALO 2.  Anywho, today was okay, it was nice to finish my last physics lab report ever.  Other than that, I'm ready for school to be over.  I always hated that winding down right before finals phase.  I just wish that teacher's would be like, "oh and surprise here's your final" the week before.  Then we all wouldn't stress so much bout it, at least not beforhand.  Anywho, I'm going to bed now, everyone have a good night

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at December 03, 2004 03:17 | link | comments

I'm sleepy, and it is definetly bed-time.  On a different note my e-mail inbox is bored.  I haven't an e-mail from anyone in like 10 days...... Lame......  Anyways, I'm going to bed, cuz I am really really really sleepy.  G'night

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at December 01, 2004 23:21 | link | comments (1)