Don't Play With Fire, Unless You Can Handle Getting Burned

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at January 28, 2005 22:42 | link | comments (1)

 The question lies today, is it important for you to like your friends friends.  I am a strong believer in the fact that I want the firends of  my friend to be on at least amicable terms with if not better with me.  But recently I can't help but have the feeling that there are certain people I just don't like based on what I know.  It's not that it's a personal thing at all, it's just that I know that we would never be friends under other circumstances.  The question perplexes me, and I 'm not exactly sure what I should do about it...

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at January 27, 2005 12:19 | link | comments (1)
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 Well, School has started, and it looks to be a very buys semester for me.  Bah!  Anywho, I'm going to try and right a longer post tomorrow.  As for now, I just hope that everyone has a good day.  And that school is over soon.  Sigh.....  G'day Everyone

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at January 24, 2005 10:05 | link | comments (1)

And So It Begins

    Well, first off. The count is approaching. I am just a few hits away from having my 50,000th reader of the page. It's kind of amazing to think that so many people have found what I've had to say worthwhile enough to spend a little bit of their time reading what I have to say. And on that note. I write this, my memorial to all that ahs been in my blog.
I started this blog well over a year ago in an attempt to find an outlet for things that were always on my mind. It also was a good forum for letting other people know how I was feeling, which usually was a good thing for most others to know. However, I think somewhere down the line things changed. Maybe she changed them for me. All I know was that my blog took a very dark, and depressing turn. I met a lot of people, especially on this site. Laura, Anita, Jared, to name a few. And this people helped me by not only reading but letting me know that there was at least on person out there in the world that cared. Thank You. It was much appreciated.
    Now Again, I am stuck at the verge of new horizons wondering exactly where I want this blog to go from here. I really love being able to go back and read how I was feeling all that time ago. I appreciate the fact that friends have been there for me. But now, I am a happier man. I recovered, granted it took me a while to get over my anger about many things in this world. This world IS NOT fair, and no one should expect it to be. You take what you can get, and if you do not get what you want it is no one else's fault but your own. I decided that I was going to stand up for my own happiness, and now, I am. However, things today still are not always perfect but THAT IS LIFE. I know that certain days are going to be worse than others are. I know that I am not always going to be happy. Nevertheless, in the end, I know that what I have done in this world HAS MADE A DIFFERENCE. I have helped many people an innumerable amount and they have given me nothing in return except for more problems. I appreciate my friends, very much so. I hope that when we are all 75 years old, we are all still hangin' out to play HALO 19, or whatever the hell game is out at that point.
    I know that throughout this time I may not have been able to comment as much on other people's blog's. But it does not mean that I do not care. The same goes for people that I have not been able to hang out with in real life. Many things have happened. Many not so good things have happened to me. People have hurt me, used me, manipulated me, but I'm a bigger man than that. I have made the CHOICE not to be bitter about my life. I know that when all is said and done, the only person we compete against is ourselves, and as much as we as a society may try to blame our problems, our faults, our shortcomings, our inadequacies, or our issues on other people, in the end it just comes down to the fact that we have to either accept the way that life treats us or get out of the way. I know that it may seem a little abrasive, but that's what life is. Life isn't going to sit around and wait for you to come to it. You have to get out there, and beat the living fuck out of it. I can speak from firsthand experience. Having experienced quite the cycle of emotional ups and downs over the past few years, nay, my entire life, I know that the time that we have is short. And I have made the choice not to be bitter anymore about things. Granted I'm no optimist. But I say "Hope for the Best, Prepare for the Worst."
    G'day everyone, I hope that you can take something from this. Whether it be the fact you know that you are appreciated, or the fact that maybe you need to get up, get out, and get to work. Because the time we have here is short, and time wait's for no one.

 

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at January 19, 2005 11:07 | link | comments (1)
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 And it's bedtime.  G;ngiht. Sigh...............................................

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at January 16, 2005 00:43 | link | comments

For Those In Need Of a Laugh

 

"Friend "No; that girl is hideous."
Tucker "Whatever. She's good enough for the dick."
Friend "Your dick needs glasses."

I quickly get too shit-housed to succeed with anything other than a toilet brush, and go home alone. I was so retarded drunk that even the ugly girl wasn't into me. I started scrolling through my phone looking for booty calls and came across the number of a girl I used to hook up with, but hadn’t talked to in about a month. After calling and waking her up, the conversation went like this:

Tucker "Come over. I want to see you."
Girl "Tucker, I'm not going to come over and sleep with you."
Tucker "Well just come over...so we can talk. I want to talk to you...you know, hear about your day."
Girl "You want to hear about my day? At 3am? Right."
Tucker [Long pause ensues] "You aren't hot enough to have this much self-respect."

I'm clearly going to hell."  (Tucker Max) www.tuckermax.com

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at January 13, 2005 22:12 | link | comments

Sooooooo, not mcuh is going on right now.  I'm just going to spend most of the day wishing tha tIw as somewhere else.  I have been getting a good amount of sleep lately., and it has definetly been making me feel a lot better. This is a good thing.  Other than that, what have I been up to? not too much.  I just wish that it was friday, so that I could be out of work, and doing things I would rather be doing.  Anyways, time oto end this rant and get on with work.  Later everyone

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at January 13, 2005 06:58 | link | comments
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Sooooo.....  I've gotten lazy again in terms of posting.  I've been doing a lot of thinking recently, about getting out of school graduating and all of those associated things.  It's kinda scary that in just a few short years, two to be exact, I'll be making decisions that affect the rest o my life.  Some of these decision are easier than others though.  But I am continualy forced to ask myself, "What Do I Want Out Of Life?" 

What is it that I want out of life.  I definetly don't have pedetrian tastes.  I like nice things, and I like going places. I like to travel and go out and do things.  I want to find a job that will let me travel yet give me time at home to spend with the people that I love.  Ideally this job would pay me ridiculously large sums of money.  I'd like to live in a nice house.  It wouldn't have to be gigantic or anything, but I would want it to be extremely well decorated, and have a big (huge) TV, and a Gigantic Kitchen.  Other than that, I want a family.  That's definetly one of the most imporatnt desires, I want to have a kid maybe two, and be able to have a real family.  That would be nice. 

I think I'm getting a little emotionally crazy at the moment because I'm having to readjust my schedule again.  I definetly enjoyed falling asleep next to someone who you knew would take care of you.  It's a feeling I'll never get tired of.

On a Different note: a few people have been annoying me recently.  Person Number 1 is on eBay, he sent me the wrong DVD's... LAME.  Person Number 2 is guilty of annoying me, becasue the continually complain, but they don't ever do anything about it.  I get annoyed with people that have enough balls to whine about somethign but none of the perseverence to actually solve the problem.  I hate it when people won't stand up for themselves.  Person 3, well they insist on using guilt to try and manipulate me.  But they're not trying to guilt me outright, tehy're trying to be all sneaky and underhanded about the whole thing.  I swear if I hear "No, It's Okay, Everything's Fine, Really" One More Time, I'm gonna snap and kill someone.

Okay, enough of that.  Now where was I.......  I have no idea.  Maybe I'll just end this egregiously long post now.  Have a good day everyone.

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at January 11, 2005 10:57 | link | comments (1)
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So, today has actually been a rather enjoyable experience.  Except for the hiorrible headache, I've been doing pretty well.  I think I may b gettin gback into the swing of thigns after having not done too much for the past few weeks.  Although I would definetly prefer some addidtional time before school to spend with people.  Alas, I ahve not this time, but such is life I suppose.  Last night was awesome.  I have never felt as comfortabl as I did alst night, just laying on my bed, and falling asleep, knowing that someone I cared about was there with me watching over me.  It was an amazing experience.  As for now, I have an impromptu party to plan, so I must be off.  Later all 

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at January 07, 2005 12:22 | link | comments

So, I've definetly been feeling a little more tired lately.  I really really don't like getting up at 6am.  That is not even remotely clsoe to what I would call fun.   Recently though, I have been enjoying myself.  The main problem lately has been such that I'm really to tired to atually go out and do anything..... I would love to have the time and energy to go out and do things, but it definetly jsut isn't there.  Write now as I write this it's 8:17am.  I doubt the majority of my friends will be up for at least another 2.5 hours or so.  I really just need about a 25 hour long nap. 

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at January 06, 2005 07:20 | link | comments

Incompetence - When you earnestly believe you can compensate for a lack of skill by doubling your efforts, There's no end to what you can't do.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

I LOVE IT!

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at January 05, 2005 08:37 | link | comments

Reports of my Demise, Have Been Greatly Exaggerated

Well, let's see, my first new blog post of the new year.  I don't really have much to say.  This year, hopefully means for me a sluffing off of all of my old baggage.  I am looking forward to getting into new things, and finding all sorts of new people to hate (j/k).  Anywho, the last week has been okay to me, I've been enojying the post-christmas sales fest, and spent most of the time either with C, or leading my brain into a stupor playing video games.  I guess this break to me has been a lot of what I needed, time to jsut relax and do whatever. Except for one thing, I don't really feel like I can ever relax anymore. As hard as I try I continue to find it ha to just let go.  I have an unfortunate feeling that this may have some consequences later on down the road.  But I'll burn that bridge when I get to it, (yay for muixed metaphors)  I hope that everyone had a happy New Year's, I am currently back at work for the man.  So any of you al who want to talk during the wee hours of the morning (7am-10am) can always drop me a line on AIM.  Other than that, I shoudl get going, I hope that everyone is doing well, and happy new years'

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at January 03, 2005 13:13 | link | comments (1)