Well, today has been an obscenely long day.......... I got up at 6am. I didn't even remember that there was a 6am... Anyways, I took my Matrix Algebra exam, not too sure as to how I did on it though. Then I was supposed to see Steph, but she slept in so I went ahead and typed up my Computer Science External Documentation. After that I hung out with Steph and Victor for a while in Sub1. We were going to play pool but alas, no table was open. Grrrr...... Anyways, it really sucks when you don't get to see people as often as you'd like to. In fact known only to me I'm actively observing something right now, we'll see what the result is and I'll post about it later if it turns out good. I noticed today I almost always seem to be the planner. I can't remember the last time one of my friends called me up and said "Hey, you want to do something?" Very intriguing, it kinda irks me. Maybe that's just my personality type. Or maybe it the fact that I'm getting really really tired of being so accommodating towards everyone all of the time. I can't really say. Maybe it's a little of both. I just wish that for once people would just make plans and then ask me to go along. I'm tired of having to come up with plans all of the time, I just don't have the free time in my schedule to plan out activities for all of you people. As much as I want to hang out with all of my friends, it would appear to me that, the ones that I should spend the most time with, are the ones who would make an effor to spend time with me. Speaking economically of course, It's lost opportunity cost. Anways, have you ever gotten tired of being decisive??? I mean being the person who makes the plans is cool, but I don't have the energy, or time, or good health for that matter. However, I'll save talking about my current health situation for another post. Also I'm just really getting tired of indecisive people. I'm about ready to pop. I swear if I get one more response like "well, I dunno, what do you wanna do?" I'm going to scream. I don't really know how to fix what's going on, and I don't know if writing about it is going to help at all. I'm just tired of people whining about stuff they have every ability to influence and change for the better but don’t'. Why, I don't know why they do it. Maybe they like to whine, maybe they just want to be annoying, or maybe they honestly don't know any better. But basically I'm starting to get to the point I was at with "you know who (a.k.a my ex significant other)" with a few of my friends, and I really don’t like that. Basically I don't want to spend time with them because all they seem to do is not want to come up with any plans. They want me to do it for them. And personally I"M tired of it. Well, That's enough for now. Sorry about the emotional outburst and the fact that I probably repeated myself a few times. Anyways, I'll post a poem to make up for it later or something, it depends on what time I get back from the gym. Later...
