Don't Play With Fire, Unless You Can Handle Getting Burned

Soooo, let's see....... I'm just chillin' here at the house now. It's really quiet here, since everybody has gone out of town. I don't think I really mind that much. I've been feeling a little groggy recently, I think that I'm just tired, although I should probably go to the doctor, as usually whenever I feel like this for an extended period of time it means that something is probably wrong with me. Oh well, I don't really want to go to the doctor's, so hopefully I can just continue to ignore this and it will go away.
What else has been going on..... hmmmm.... Chriostmas was good, I got a bunch of useful things, although I think that the holiday season seems to ahve lost a lot of its magic to me. The past few days I kinda just feel like I have been going through the motions. Nothing I get on chrsitmas is a surprise, I knew everything I Was going to get, and Ithe whole experience was just vbery very draining. I'm not sure exactly what it was about this year, but I just can't seem to get as excited as I used to be able to about it. Maybe it just needs to snow, I bet that would make me happy.
I got to hang out with a few friends tonight, that was great, I really miss my friends..... For some reason it has become harder and harder to find time to hang out with them, I'm not going to complain about not having enough free time, because I know that isn't the reason, I don't really know what it is, and that is something that is bothering me. I really miss the comradery that I have with "the guys." I know that we're all busy adults now and leading our lives, going to school, working, familial obligations, kids (for some of us), and so on, but I just wish that we could all hang out more. Maybe it's some sort of nostalgic feelings coming back, but I miss the times when I could jsut throw caution to the wind and be spontaneous. My life seems to have somehow managed its way into neat little packages, and I don't think that I really like that. Don't get me wrong, I love the way a lot of things are going right now, there are just some that need some work. I don't know if it's one of those things that I just need to spend some time thinking about, or if it's something I am going to have to fix, I just know that I'm going to have to figure something out.
Anyways, I need to go to bed, don't get me wrong though, it's not like I'm sad or anything, it's just that, I have certain things on my mind that really irk me even though the rest of my life is probably doing better than it has in a long time.

Posted by: hitokiriyuki at December 27, 2004 01:19 | link | comments
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