And So It Begins

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

    Well, first off. The count is approaching. I am just a few hits away from having my 50,000th reader of the page. It's kind of amazing to think that so many people have found what I've had to say worthwhile enough to spend a little bit of their time reading what I have to say. And on that note. I write this, my memorial to all that ahs been in my blog.
I started this blog well over a year ago in an attempt to find an outlet for things that were always on my mind. It also was a good forum for letting other people know how I was feeling, which usually was a good thing for most others to know. However, I think somewhere down the line things changed. Maybe she changed them for me. All I know was that my blog took a very dark, and depressing turn. I met a lot of people, especially on this site. Laura, Anita, Jared, to name a few. And this people helped me by not only reading but letting me know that there was at least on person out there in the world that cared. Thank You. It was much appreciated.
    Now Again, I am stuck at the verge of new horizons wondering exactly where I want this blog to go from here. I really love being able to go back and read how I was feeling all that time ago. I appreciate the fact that friends have been there for me. But now, I am a happier man. I recovered, granted it took me a while to get over my anger about many things in this world. This world IS NOT fair, and no one should expect it to be. You take what you can get, and if you do not get what you want it is no one else's fault but your own. I decided that I was going to stand up for my own happiness, and now, I am. However, things today still are not always perfect but THAT IS LIFE. I know that certain days are going to be worse than others are. I know that I am not always going to be happy. Nevertheless, in the end, I know that what I have done in this world HAS MADE A DIFFERENCE. I have helped many people an innumerable amount and they have given me nothing in return except for more problems. I appreciate my friends, very much so. I hope that when we are all 75 years old, we are all still hangin' out to play HALO 19, or whatever the hell game is out at that point.
    I know that throughout this time I may not have been able to comment as much on other people's blog's. But it does not mean that I do not care. The same goes for people that I have not been able to hang out with in real life. Many things have happened. Many not so good things have happened to me. People have hurt me, used me, manipulated me, but I'm a bigger man than that. I have made the CHOICE not to be bitter about my life. I know that when all is said and done, the only person we compete against is ourselves, and as much as we as a society may try to blame our problems, our faults, our shortcomings, our inadequacies, or our issues on other people, in the end it just comes down to the fact that we have to either accept the way that life treats us or get out of the way. I know that it may seem a little abrasive, but that's what life is. Life isn't going to sit around and wait for you to come to it. You have to get out there, and beat the living fuck out of it. I can speak from firsthand experience. Having experienced quite the cycle of emotional ups and downs over the past few years, nay, my entire life, I know that the time that we have is short. And I have made the choice not to be bitter anymore about things. Granted I'm no optimist. But I say "Hope for the Best, Prepare for the Worst."
    G'day everyone, I hope that you can take something from this. Whether it be the fact you know that you are appreciated, or the fact that maybe you need to get up, get out, and get to work. Because the time we have here is short, and time wait's for no one.